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09 July 2007 @ 11:15 am
Birthday Reflections  
I guess some of the things that have been plaguing me as of late are this:
I'm 24 and I'm still living at home.
I'm still an undergrad by choice.
I have too many bills and not enough money.
I can't find another job, so I'm still stuck in the same hellhole after 4 years.
Most of my friends appear to be addicts of some kind, whether it's through drugs or promiscuity.
Most of them lack remorse and are crude.
And it's honestly painful to see.
I can't wait until I'm out of college and I pick up and move out of the country. I mean, separating myself from all this mess is going to be great. Peace of mind, self-sufficient, relying on knowledge, increasing my intelligence, strength, instinct and my God.

That's really all I need. Leading up to my birthday I spent days thinking, playing video games, watching movies, working, and talking to people. On my actual birthday I overslept, went to a party, hung out, ate more than what I do in a day, went home to my family and spent time with them, talked to my grandma, ate cake and ice cream, then went back to the party. I should've stayed at home. People were drinking way too much and passing out, people were also all over each other and it just turned into a lot of mess. I'm not spending a lot of time with certain folks anymore. All this time away really shows me that I need to just get out of this hillbilly state and move on to the next level of my life. I'm destined for more. It's time I face it.
Current Mood: annoyedannoyed
Current Music: Seal - Human Beings